29More daes to ma big freakiyn dae...hehe


my throat is killing me since yest but still stubborn enuff to go out n meet hotsytotsy at SENGKANG.got the beg frm Ruzaini.thanx man...ill return it fta da trip yah...
den accompanied him to Tamp...walked ard lookin to shukri's bdae prezzi.few mins later....sheena ghurlie came.she dyed her hair...lighter color now...den we sat ard at Coffebean.ordered hot choc...n wen i got hm..i realised ders red spots all over ma legs.it freaked me out.aunty says maybe its measles n man!i was scared dat im not b goin KL for dat..
went back to da doc juznow.he said da red spots is due to da throat infection i had.damn...infection cn realli be serious man...i dunno how i got dem...
i asked da doc whther issit possible if i juz go ahead wf da KL trip...n he said yes...yippeeeeeeee..hehe..i dunwanna sit at hoome staring at da wall...bah!
meetin hotsytotsy n narny layter...wee!!gonna ask her to treat us..hehe.
nid to get board shorts for maself...ill blog layter...


20 days to my burfdae......yippe!!
am doin a personal countdown for maself...haha

i had a realli difficult nite to deal wif yest.a terrible headache plus a heart ache.damn it....it sure does a great pain to me...esp wen noone bothers to even calm me down.thank you.
u care too much bt yaself dat u dun even wan to hear me out...
dun wan to calm me down wif ya werds...
gave up on me...
i noe i may be demanding....bt wad's da pt having a bf if ive to cry by maself?
whrs all da promises u promise once...
dat u'll go thru ups n down wif me down da hill...
was it juz a simple..sweet...qn?
i dun nid u to b a perfect man...juz b a perfect person in ma eyes...n to ma heart...ill b grateful for dat...








woke up real early todae.den sit ard watched MONSTER INC.rite fta dat...cuzins came ,alot of noice pollution.im still feeling abit feverish.n now ma throat huts..argggggggggghh...damn it...doc ddint give me ani lozenges.i hope i'll get well real soon br4 da KL trip.plz GOD...ans ma prayers.i accepted wadhappen to me.ppl say if ure sick...it means dat GOD wans to 4give u...
haven had ma dinner.haf no appetite tho.had terrible headache.cnt wait to mit hotsytotsy tomoro...yipppeeeeeee!
ma brain kinda jam up todae...dunno wadelse to blog...
layter


Fri:hehe...day was sooo interesting.bought momsy prezie.den met up wif aunt n her fren.went Danga bay.tell u...da pl is realli great.its a real replica to ESPLANADE...so very same.onli dat its more like a big food centre.tok tram rides.only cost us 1 ringgit.cheap sia!i ate dis ice cream called TWIN TOWER..its soo very tall.its nice..n low fat.hehe..

SAT:early in da mornin...woke up wif a swollen left-side of da neck.nenek says maybe its mumb....so went to da doc...n he said its throat infection.i felt feverish tho.but i still haf to continus wif da plan to bring momsy out for dinner.so...went Carrefour to do sum shoppin.den off to SOFRA for our dinner.i ordered sultanah kebab...was superduper dee-lee-cious..i loike!n now i felt feverish back...i gotta pop in da pills be4 dozing off.one more day to mittin hotsytotsy...im counting...

PS:nab...im realli realli sorrie i cnt go to da shoe sale..4give me plz....will look out for more sales nxt time k gf?


im thankful dat im blessed with who i am todae...
im thankful for who shaped me up till todae..
im thankful im not like some kiddos tryin to hard on sumthing dey know can spoil dem
and yet dey did all that becus of peer pressure.
sad huh...to be in tis difficult decision.
Tryin soo hard to b sumone dey r not...
Tryin sooo hard to be like deir idols in the West...
but for gdness sake....ure asians..n u'll stay dat way for da rest of ya life ppl!
no pt tryin to b sumone else n yet it doesnt suit ya personality.u'll juz b a laffin stock to others.
u may thnk ure cool...but ure not!bah...
im lucky i haf restrictions to obey.curfews to follow....if not...ill b one of u'all...
im always laffin at maself wen i look at tis ppl...wad da hell r dey thnkin...?dunt dey want to treasure dey teenage lifes?
or r dey thnkin bt celebratin teenage lives means dey cn do anithing??haha...
poor kiddos...ure damn fookin wrong...

u noe whu u re.....


went out wif aunty todae.first to Arab st..den move up to Tekka.damn freakin tired sia.ma legs like sooo weak.i feel so sick..dunno y..went ard lookin for stuffs for uncle ultraman engagement day.deir color will b ma fav color...PURPLE!i sooo loike it!
had lunch at tekka market.da briyani was sucky...so cold...ewwwwww...n went into tis indian convenient shop..ohh man...the smell in da air makes me puke.u noe..doese smells of flowers n da indians 'perfume' realli makes me puke.n sadly...it sticks to ma body!arghhhhhh....
toook 960 back hm.a realli longggg...journey tho.damn it!i cnt wAit to mit hotsytotsy.im like missing himm soo much.i cnt take it.knowing dat his sick n all...makes me wanna go all da way to changi n see him...but he forbids me to.i wasnt in much mood dis days wen i go out.noone to hangout wif...to chill...shuld i call dis stress??haha...nah..dunthnk so...
ohh yah..i dreamnt bt mista taufik batisah AGAIN!dun ask me y...i got no ans to dat.all i noe is i didnt fantasize bt him..thnk bt him..n poos!here he appeared in ma dreams.weird huh...haha...bt a realli nice one.no wet ones yah!
havent get momsy bdae prezie.dunno wadta get herla.shes da choosy woman juz like me!haha..so im scared i get her a wrong gift n she didnt use it.its gonna make me sooo sad.i still remembered wen i was still in pri sch..i was soo eager to get momsy a handbeg for her bdae.bcuz of da shortage of money i get for ma daily allowances...i bought a realli cheap handbeg i cn find.n its GREEN in color!hahha...momsy took da bdae gift bt i remebered her giving it to ma aunt a week fta dat.maybe she doesnt wnas me to feel sad.thnkin bt it...haha...im sooo silly to get her dat gift!bt now....she shuld b lucky im her daughter cuz i gave gd gifts!
goin jb again tomoro....dis time wif dada.dunno wad to get der...but im sure gettin nothin..i wanna save ma smackeroos for layter!


i was finally let out in da wild.hehe..went johor...had fun der.but poor me...didnt get anithing for maself.im totally broke..waiting for da trip to KL..hopefully..ders sumthing to buy.tasted banana yogurt juznow.its very nyce..but i juz bought a small size cuz not enuff money..pity me huh..
waiting for monday.dats da dae mittin beau.miss him alot..as in alot!tok to C.P yest...i hope things will b okay btween her n sheena.its sad to c ya frens in tis way...
bestfren juz msg to inform me bt shoe sale at suntec convection...thanx gurlie..but me sudah kering kocek..hehe
till dem..




woke up frm quite a bad dream tis morning.i thnk i concentrated too much on da vcd bt
dukun liur'.aunty borrowed it frm her fren n we watched it last nite.n damn..i miss da american's top model..triple shiety...
accompanied aunt to da shop.she treated ma bfast of mee hoon soto.its sooo super-duper dee-leecious n supper-duper-spicy...dat i felt maself sweating alot!
todae's mama bdae...n tis sat gonna celebrate it outside for dinner.dunno whr to go...but i thnk ive decide da pl.tomoro dad gonna get his bonus....double yay!i wanna ask money frm him.been quite sumtime since i last shop!im short of everything...i nid a wardrobe revamp!plz...
ohh yah...its been 4 freakin lonely = miss mittin hotsytotsy.hes been busy werkin his ass out..pooor beau..
i guess dis is all for now........till layter..


i watched u grow up...15yrs ago...n now..everything changed...changed frm a cute lil thing...to a rude brat!is dis how u repay ya flesh n blood??!guess kiddos nowdays tend to b alil diffrent.very open...more freedom..i agree dat ma own sissy haf more freedom den me...
wad a gd monday mornin for me.thank you for makin dis soo interestin mornin...u brat!
im stuck doin nothin....so bored...no cash...am sooo poor...n aunty's yellin juz make me sooo pissedoff...thank u.
i wish i stay far away...away frm everyone..lead ma own freakin..simple life...i wish i cn migrate to somewhr else...haiz...
i wanna live alone....do everything alone...


weeee....da zoo plan goes well.30th dec...here i came..
niways...smooth dae as normal.went to attend sum jemputan wif granny,dad n aunt.da rice was okay...but it was rainin man..ppl say...wen its rainin...it means..da bride and groom ate belacan...or dey didnt bathe!!!!!!hahaha...dats wad old ppl say...
oh yah...sissy went back pretty late yest.i bet she did enjoyed herself.she told us its gonna b her last time goin gigs.haha...poor gal...8 freakin hrs is too long for ya xpensive legs huh??
i was readin papers wen i cme across dis article...bt teenagers.i dun understand y sum teens r soo eager to step da teen age of 18 n pooop..dat means 'a road to my freedom'...bah!
i was askin maself wen im 18...wad shuld i feel like wen im 18?i dun feel anithing...like..ooo...shuld i try smokin...drinkin...haf sex...??dats wad most teens ma age will do...but thnkin bt dat....its kinda stupid.18 is juz an age.its nothin special...esp to sumone like me...whu haf curfews.im not embarrased to say dat i still haf curfews eventho im goin 20!for gdness sake!at sum time...i feel i wanna protest..but im glad i didnt.if i did...i wuldnt b da gal i am now..so?its nothin being 18....no tryin of ciggies...liquor?clubbing?no big fuck to me...life is not bt all dis...life is more to dis...
shoppin?ooo...definately...a yes yes for me...i rather splurge it on food...clothes...shoes...bags...den gif it all on ciggies...lil kiddos...if ya still saving ya money on skul canteen food...i suggest dun waste ya freakin money on ciggies....try cigar...if u can afford...den...ill look up to u...haha..
oh yah...was cryin ma heart out yest nite.waiting for da call..but it didnt sound.i got frustrated...i feel like throwing it but...i dunwanna spoil it..hehe
i made up ma decision of leaving u...but u stopped me.
u promised da u'll change....so..ill patiently wait
if u dun change...ill walk away...for gd..
u hurt me...but ill juz keep quiet..
i aint sum animal...
im a normal human being whu haf a heart n feelings..
so treat me well...dun juz say...action speaks louder den words...
deep down...i love u to pieces dat i regret spittin da wrds..'leave me'...wen we fought...

i prayed dat everything will b fine btween us...Amin..



damn...i feel realli like a rottin carcass man..sittin at home da whole day on a SATURDAE!all i did was...watchin VCD..again n again..bah!sissy went hiphop fest...she got a free pass in.
thank you beau for doin tis irritatyn shyte to me..thank you soooo much.a real MEANingful one for moi.cmon...change.....for da better plz!
ohh yah...im leavyn for KL on da 24th.cnt wait...counting down da daes.at first...i was reluctant to go....but now....not animore.i was shop till i drop..hehe
0730...waiting for dat time to tune on channel 5.encore telecast of singapore idol.maybe dat will make ma day..hopefully...
sori sheena...cnt make it der...due to sum stuffs.
hmm...guess nab n indra is having a whole lot of fun outside now.since nab's celebratin indra's bdae todae...she asked me along..but i kinda feel weird goin wifout ma beau der..haf fun gf...
its nearly a week...but still didnt hear frm cuzin.guess she dont need me now dats y no calls frm her...
was flippin da papers juznow...tempted to get ma hp changed..haha...n i feel like goin shoppin...but...poor me...no money.
till den...love y'all


went for slimmyn session todae.met hotsytotsy rite fta dat.we were like having no real direction..picked up JUICE on da way.bought ma fav YAMI YOGURT..n brownie nibblers..yummay...love it alot.ma poor money is decreasing day by day.soon ill b left wif nothing...poor me...*hur hur hur*
saw tis pretty lookin wallet...dunno whether to get it anot.its like 34bucks...too xpensive for moi.hehe...im very da cheapskate wen it cums to all dis stuffs.ill think twice..ohh no...five times be4 buyin it.heh.im not sumone whu goes like ohh...roxy...volcom...ripcurl...oh damn..i sure get dem..nah..im not dose kinds.ill go for da cheapest in town.....even da budget shops ill never leave town wifout.i even go for 3bucks tees..hehe..how cheapskate of me rite..there r certain stufs i bought wifout even sparing a thot to it...like limited editions sneaks...or GUCCI..wooott..hehe..can sumone buy me nyce stuffs for ma bdae nxt mth??plzzzzzz...pretty plzzzz..hehe
am deciding whther i wanna go kl or not...but hotsytotsy stopped me...he said he'll miss me if im not here...or wen im back...i'll forget him n hooked up wif sum mat kl..hahahha..funny la him..
i love him alot...as in alot!same goes to da rest i called frens...nab..sheena..c.p...n alot more la........
PS:ohh...ya..sheena..whr r u??ive been msing u bt da zoo trip but u didnt reply me yet :(
layter


wooppy....got ma self 2 cups of free frappucino frm starbucks.read frm straits times yest bt starbucks giving away free beverage btwn 5-7pm.i dunwan to let da opportunity go to waste.i pulled hotstytotsy wifme...n we patiently queue...like TYPICAL singaporeans...haha..gotmaself..Rhumba n Caramel...i soooo love coffee...but poor hotsytotsy...he juz haf to stand da taste of it...hehe
be4 that...we catched school for seduction at lido.da movie was quite gd tho...den...walked ard town..survey for clothes...n get maself a cheap cardigan and a sweater for hotsytotsy.
ohh yah....got ma hair cut...real short tis time.dunno whther its nice...but i kinda like it bcus i feel more 'lighter' heh.. on da head..~
hmm...dats much bt it...oh yah...saw elza juznow...but i hide maself frm her..haha...
layter


damn it...ive written alot n everything got deleted due to ma stupidity..bah..
now..ive to blog again...all over..
ate alot...chicken kebab..super dee-lee-cious..u ppl shuld try it.its da one at jurong pt banquet.go ard da mall lookin for cheap slippers for ma dear sissy cuz he sandals got torn off.pooor gurl.den met up wif aunt dada at paya lebar...n went srt8 to her fren's pl.ate again...tis time..mee bakso.dee-llee-cious too..but i kept folding ma legs up n screaming cuz ders a cat in da house.its sooo cute....but im sooo scared of it.haha
oh yah..checkout frenster juznow n i was 'shocked' to c haida's pics wif mista xboo.haha...posing in a weird way tho...very sexy..i shuld say.im not bothered wif da pics neither do i feel jealous...but i was juz having tis thing in ma mind..."ive to save dat poor gurlfren of mine frm him"....im kinda bad tho thinkin dat way.whu noes mista xboo has 'changed'...but i doubt so.i juz dunwan da poor gurl to be hurt by him like da way he did to me.den haida send me a msg sayin she was doin all dose posing wif mista xboo cuz she wans to make her xbf jealous.haha...

niways...cant wait to mit hotsytotsy tomoro n at da same time...haf ma hair cut off...hopefully it will turn out nice...
ive been havin a very gd tok to hotsytotsy dese days...bt fam...frens...our relationship...i kinda miss him...very much...arghhhhhhhh........


met up wif miss nab ard 1pm.went to wisma n look for da 25hrs shop but cnt find it.thanx for da 'great' help bud.niways...checkout da one at citychain..n dey havin an offer on tis addidas watch selling for $45.due to unsatisfaction..we still walk ard to find da best n most budget gift.God answered to our needs.we finally found da 25hrs shop rite at Meridien hotel.n it goes for $38!!damn cheap n nice.i loike!hehe...so we happi took a bus to bugis n had our lunch.miss nab treat me at zam zam.both of us ordered nasi briyani.superduper nyce!we laff...n tok wif our mouth full..haha..
fta all...a nyce day wif ma bestfren.its been quite sumtime since we go out togehter.den...cme a msg frm her bf.....as usual....sooo very worried bt his gf..haha..
fta dat...met up wif aunt....to go to her fren's pl.weee.....got duit raye.
oh yah....saw tis realli nice watch...but fergot wad brand...will ask frm mama wen she gets her pay....toodles...off..

later..

Ps:niways gf....*sheena* u sounded soooo angry in ya blog...wad happen?kolme if u nid sumone to tok ya...


for a whole day...im stuck athome.doin nothin but kept popping in food in ma mouth!heh..oh gosh...im putting on weight..helpme.!!i thnk i rather go out n window shop...den stayed at home like a couch potato....
cnt wait to mit nab tomoro.will b goin shoppin for her sweetheart's prezie.i had juz fin blog-hopping.very interesting blogs ive read.im squinting ma eyes out juz to read sheena's blog.hehe...gurl...da werds r tooo close..
im missing hotsytotsy...hmmm....2daes of not smelling him..hehe...
blog layter...



304...fun..interesting..happy... 3 words to describe tis.went hm quite early juznow.hotsytotsy went to mitup wif hyder n farhan to take sum pics on hyder's new digital SLR...cool isnt it?
ate quite alot.bought maself a KFC colonel meal.i dunno y ive been eating sooo much todae...gotta cut down n hopefully...ma body weight doesnt goes up..
blog again soooon....cya


ive juz chatted wif ma cuzin...*ouch* she realli makes me cry...da way shes pointing fingers towards me.but hell...i wuldnt wan to gif in tis time rd.n y shuld i?u make me embarassed infront of ma bf...n now ure like askin ask to make da first move in tokin to y'all?whu da big fuck do u thnk u re?n y shuld i do all tis for u?whr i noe u dun care nomore....n onli kolme wen u nid sumone to feel ya emptiness.plz GOD..make me strong enuff to go thru all tis...AMIN

i was reading the tabloids juznow wen i came across da headlines bt the spore idols.im very disappointed wif da reaction of spore music industry.i dun understand y da prize for da winner of spore idol is da same wif the 2nd runnerup?its so unfair...if dats da case....dont make taufik da spore idol if sporeans wans slyvester so much to win.n dey r like so interested in bringing Dat CHINESE guy to far rather den da spore idol.isnt tis called racist???!!Y muz da chinese everytime haf to win??juz bcuz rite NOW spore is known for its chinese majority??hello...spore was first founded by da malays...n da chinese grab it frm dem!im sorrie if ma blog has offended sum other bloggers but ill definately with ma stand.gif sum space to other minority in spore.....i PROTEST!
ohh...yah...todae's ma 10th monthsary.happi monthsary hotsytotsy!love u
p:s i miss u bestfren...kolme soon...


here i am as promise.the food is super duper great.dinner at Marche.had boneless chicken leg.yummay!!!...dee-lee-cious...
got him a wallet.hotsytotsy n me go-dutch.its cheap...but nice n simple.
wasnt too happi tho...not much toking...juz among themselves.felt like an outsider.sad huh...
sheena msg to say she had high fever...gurl..u betta get well soon!
n for nab...i still hafen haf ani ideas for da prezie...but a gd dinner wuld b fine.i'll crack ma head again.
dad gave a green-lite for me taking driving license...hooooorayyyyyy...the first step to a bright beginning.
hmm...plannin on whr to go tomoro.......plz...gimme sum ideas...
oh yah...i got a hell-shock out of ma hair wen comot suddenly hopped towards me.hahhaa...she has nv done dat n its da very first time.i was screaming infront of da door.aunties laff at me...n say..'bagusla...balik lambat lagi...'...i wanna turn in n tok to hotsytotsy...
layter

ps:comot is a cat...*meow*



i was out jln raya yest but managed to stop by to watch da finale of spore idol.im not a fanatic fan of Taufik Batisah i kinda feel happi for him cuz he won e competition.atlast...a MALAY make it to the limelite.everytime we see da chinese make it to the top in spore but tis time ard...da minority prove them wrong.Congratz taufik!
yest outing was kinda okay...eventho not many ppl were der.onli bt 8 of us.i freaked out wen we wnt to boy's house cuz he kept a black cat!since small...i freaked out wen i see cats.i loike dem...but am afraid to touch it.
nab msg bt wat to get for her bf...till now..i hafen haf ani any in ma lil brain.with $30 as a budget....wad cn she get him??anione cn drop me an idea......
am miting cuzin todae at 6pm.elfie's 17 bdae.now a big...grown..goodlookin guy...oopss...i fergot..handcore guy..hehe
im saving ma tummy for a big feast in the evening....blog layter..

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