My poor self suffered from constipation for 1 whole week!i cnt stand it animore that i went to the doctor yest nite accompanied by aunty dada.i was given 1 day mc.by rite..i wanna go skul since its the first day all of us doin the character design.another sem of stress..only seven freakin weeks to ma exam..haiz..life is realli stressful.
Hotsytotsy has been werkin dese days.less of him..n more of missing him.Nab's been quiet..guess her busy werkin schedule is the answer.ive been a bugger to sheena..buggin her for the picxies..but she didnt reply.hmm...maybe shes bz also..?if ya reading tis..pass me the pics aite..
Ive been eyeing this clothes from the net.Cnt wait to get them once ive money.one bad thing bt me..wen ive enuff bucks..ill eneded up not knowing whic to buy..or if i noe which one to buy..ill end up saving the money n spent it on sumthing i dun need..haha..thats me.
im much of a saver..i hate to be spend ma money unnecessary.i wuldnt pay for a lipgloss thta cost me 20 over dollars..esp wen im juz buyin it for the brand.All this things been spoilt by mama.shes the one whu provides me wif all this stuffs..
if not for her..i wuldnt bother buyin all dose.
i hate to boast bt having this n that.im grateful for wad i have...n am...i dunwan to fight with others juz to be the best n haf the best things but zero talent!i pay for cheap..n ncice stuffs even without brand..
sumtimes i feel ma life was kinda empty.ppl took me for granted.Wen dey need me..dey will b super good to me...but wen dey dont..u wun imagine wad dey did to me.But ill juz sit n smile..i hate to point out others mistake..i want them to realise it for themselves..but sum...dont..dey think dey own this world...us ppl...n took everyone for granted.
i was reading the straits times wen dey pointed out bt being in an ite.ITE student cn now lift their heads high...
be4 im in ite..i never deny that i do feel inferior if im in an ite.most of ma frens r in jc...poly...art skul..whereas me..im stuck here.
But i kinda feel satisfied that student in ite cn do better den those in art skul.so..i dun c y sum ppl r trying so hard to diffrenciate the ite students frm the rest?
They underestimate the abilities of an ite student to one whus in an art skul.(im tokin here more bt ma course related)
For me...sum in the art skul has no talent n yet they r in an art skul...bull isnt it?but for those whus talent r there...deserves to be in.;)
but if u only go to a skul becuz of its name..i think ure choosing a wrong path.
im noting against this.i,too wans to futher ma studies in an art institute.
oh ya..i dunno y everyone is avoidin me...did i offend u ppl?
finally...back...the com been reformat n ive lost all ma pics!stupid!alot to blog..but i kinda ferget everything..hehe
Fri:went over sheena's pl for the photo shoot.Her nice mumsy cook us a delicious macoroni.hehe..
Den start off taking the pics n changing from one clothes to another.Its tiring but im helping a fren..:)
It was fun tho..rite fta dat...wen town wif dem..n later on sheena n ruzaini went off first for an audition..
i hate it wen ppl started to point fingers at me.Dey dunno me well for now...n dey blardy say dat ive change..
ive heard it too many...from too many ppl...
but y cnt this ppl face that dey r the ones whus actualli changing?haiz.....
i better shut maself...dun wish to go on...
look at yaself first...be4 pointing ya finggies at others..
Wee....thanx to mr loh for helping us with the 3d..we r almost done!n thanx to andy..for being such a GREAT fucker...whu bastards us at the very last min...i sure make ya life a living hell...
im missing hotsytotsy...not mittin him todae..n nenek is discharged..yippey!
2 more mnths to hotsytotsy birthday..i wish ive the money to get him those SLR..for atleast i noe he'wll make gd use of it.Unlike most people now..dey r goin gagas over gd quality cam but are zero in taking pics..boo to y'all...
i shall spent ma 1 week hols goin out..ive been a gd gurl lately..concentrating hard on taking care of ma nenek n skul..so its time i lose up abit.
i shall bug mama to gimme sum money for shopping..not been doin all that for sumtime.
ive alota stuffs on ma mind..things to buy..but onli money is not der..
but i wun brood on it..im grateful of whu i am...n i will never like to boast of how rich or poor i am...
oh ya..to u diehard wannabes...dun try too hard..juz be ya self.. :)
oh ya..nab...u suppose to mit me tomoro rite..to pass the parfum..tell me whether u mittin me up anot k...cya
dun ask me y im still bloggin whereas ive a 3d project due tomoro...
ans:im clueless n dunno wher to start...it freaks me out to see almost all of dem r done with the animation except ma grp...i wuldnt comment ani further or im in tears..
Nenek is gettin better...alhamdullilah..doc says...if shes doin fine by tomro...she cn be discharge..hooray!
This whole week has been a realli boring week for me...i didnt go out..except to the hospital n back home..sleepless nite...n aching body...luckily...hotsy makes me smile wen i woke up n saw him juz beside me...
Nab's mittin me on fri..i think by then nenek is out from the hospital...hmm...guess shes bz...
i was bloghopping wen i came across this blog...i like reading their blog...its shared btween two gurls...who r best frens..n i realli like the way they spent time wif each other..buyin things for eachother eventho each of them haf their own life...own bf...
i wish i was in their pl..i wish i cn be like them...not neglecting ma bestfren...but i think...things r changing...we close...but since both r bz...we dont haf time for eachother..sad isnt it...?..hmm....
this days..ma dayes r spent practically in the hospital ward or lobby...
its been realli tiring wif me havin lotsa projects due n the com and laptop is such NOT a great help..
No choice..but to ask for fin's help.Im grateful for havin him as a classmate whu understanbds wad im goin thru n helped me alot..thanx man...i owe u
My weekends r spent lookin after nenek..i dunno..but i think ive change alot this days..
i commit maself in lookin after her..cnt bear to leave her alone in the ward..
now den i noe how tough it is for her to look after me wen i was a baby...stayin in the hospital wen im sick...n now..its time that i pay her back..n be grateful for wadeva she did to me..
Hotsytotsy has been der too...He accompanied me tru the nites in the hospital..n due to ma stress..hes always be the victim of it.im sorrie love...i dun mean to be soo wicked towards u..but i hope u understand wad im goin thru..i love u
oh yah...congrats to ain for gettin the exchange prog in london... :)
n sheena...callme up wen u nid us k..for the model thingy...
n nab...i nid to mit ya up to get the perfume...so tell me wen ya free...
love ya'all......
Everyone came...only to get the news that granny is sick.y muz u'all only visit her wen shes ill?n y muz der b a family gathering wen a rilly important thing like this happend?
i dunwan God to take nenek away...away from us...away from me.I cnt imagine how ma life wuld be.i wus cryin secretly not wanting her to see ma tears.i put up a strong front cuz i wan her to stay strong n get thru this.ive always known her as sumone whus strong-will n never gave up...
the nite be4..i had a stupid dream bt granny...a dream i cnt seem to recall...afta muz of trying...
ppl say if u dream of sumthing u dun seem to remember...it means it will come true.in ma dream...i felt the pain that granny is in difficulty...
n so it is true..
i cnt seem to concentrate on ma werk...wadmore think bt goin out even to the nearby library...
i dun wan another dejavu...
which happen bt 6 yrs ago wen i dun even haf time to say gdbye to ma late grandfather...
i hope granny will get well...n strong..
i cnt slip well...it kept me awake weneva i heard her tryin to get to the loo...n wad makes it more sad...she dun realise that she had accidentally passmotion on the bed...
its so sad to see her suffer this way...will i be able to see her thru?i hope i will......pls God...dun take her away from me... :'(
i hope the trip to the doc will b gd...n she wun b send to the hospital...like wad the doc intend to do yest...
maybe ive done alot of wrong-doings...n God punishes me this way...But pls...dun punish her.....punish me instead..........
i wish Hotsytotsy n nab is here wif me now..at this toughest moment....
i love him in this top...retro babe!
since small ive fear goin up a stage...but since Hotsytotsy is ma onli audience...i overcome ma fear..:P
its been weeks ive not blog...been REAL busy...projects due soon...flash n 3d..
my beloved grp members were takin things easy..the boys i mean...i realli dunno wad to say..i hate to say that im giving up..cuz i dun n i dunwanna fail this module...but im not sayin 3d is easy...its damn challenging...haiz...
went to the national lib yest..it was huge...13 floor...
Hotsytotsy want ed to try the elevator..which he claim his frens says u feel like ya balls will b at ya mouth..haha...
i dun realli agree..but i freaked out alil wen standing near the glass pane...ma adrenalin makes ma heart go faster..haha
nice day out...found books on flash but none on 3dmax...
i cnt wait to fin up all ma projetcs n haf a lil fun outside...:)
im missing nab...not been tokin to her lately...
n sheena..whu misses me too... :)
love y'all
oh yah..of cuz..i love ma hotsy
i love him in this top...retro babe!
since small ive fear goin up a stage...but since Hotsytotsy is ma onli audience...i overcome ma fear..:P